burn that speaker
I don't think anyone's listening...
That's sword fighting in the background. I fucking hate it.
I keep hearing the same advice over and over and over again.... CONFRONT!
Even, the person who's the source of my agitation had told me to confide in whenever I feel irritated. (No matter how much I try to admit that I am the source of my own agitation, I can fucking hear that sword fighting, it's right next to my ears)
I tried, but it was of no use. That's why, I fucking hate confrontation.
Confrontation is weakness especially if the person confronted to is resistant to change. They can never change.
Meanwhile, I always sneak out, even though I've to walk out.
I confided in, "Please, I'm trying to focus". Isn't that what cohabilitation is all about ?
I wanna burn those swords, I want to call thunder, I want to call lightening to dread upon those swords, and ruin them, turn them to ashes, burn that speaker! PLEASE, (uhh, maybe the swords are in my own mind, I'm sorry).
But I already confided in once. I'm not going to fall for "Darling, you should confront" advice ever again, it does nothing.
People are maybe resistant to change, or maybe some of them. Maybe confrontation is the most useless and inefficient thing that there is in the world (next to my power of conviction).
Gosssssshhhh, that noise! I can't focus. Even these noice cancellation headphones aren't that efficient, I can hear the noise, he's moving his controller, his character is jumping, his character is making a flip, his character is fighting demons with a sword, his character is a protagonist, but I can hear him. I don't wish to, I don't want to hear him. It's screeching, it's painful! it's sad to see how I've no strength. I've no power, no conviction, I'm just a scared pathetic being who's scared of not getting liked and in turn get abandoned. I don't think anyone's listening!
(The sword fight continues...)